Singapore's Election 2011 - Polling day

Now is 12.08am. Today will be the day to decide for ourselves and vote for the future we want to see in Singapore. These ten days have been the most amazing days in Singapore's political history. 82 out of 87 seats were contested for in GRCs and SMCs except for Tanjong Pagar. Rallies are drawing huge crowds of people and information transmission through various media was overwhelming.  

Election 2011 was very different from my virgin experience 5 years ago. Then, I was only in my early twenties. Living in a stable and safe country like Singapore have blunted my ability to question why things work and why things don't work. I have never wondered about how the government works neither did I know anything about the opposition. I vaguely remembered going to the polling and making a cross on the obvious choice which most people made. There was no question on my choice. I was a fresh graduate starting to work in the society and I was a happy citizen. 


5 years have passed. I went through many changes in my personal life. I got married and I bought a HDB flat. I went through the economic crisis and I lost my job to restructuring. I was one of the lucky ones who managed to get a new flat and the prices were still not as high compared to now. Still, it was with the help of my in-laws to get the down payment as my husband and I were young and could not afford. I managed to find a permanent job again after a year of contract work. Along with many people, I am very unhappy with how Singapore is progressing and very supportive of the opposition parties as they seemed to address what Singaporeans really need. I was reading online articles and watching youtube videos to get more information on the contesting candidates. It really sounds promising to me. With most of my friends posting positive feedback on the opposition, it seemed to me that this is the way to go forward.


However, after watching the rally broadcast on CNA earlier on, I had this question in my mind, is our opposition good enough to combat the future issues that Singapore going to face? Are they able to handle international issues rather than just focusing on the domestic issues? I really wondered and started to worry. Honestly speaking, I would love to have them in the Parliament to have alternative voices to address for our concerns and I do believe that we need it. 

On the other hand, it seemed to me that they are so focused on the domestic issues that are bothering Singaporeans and using it as their main argument to tackle on the flaws of the government. What about the international issues? Are they taking into consideration of the impact of their ideas being introduced into the Parliament? 

Many large corporations are happy with the government policies here and this is the reason why they came here to set up companies and branches which in turns provide jobs to the locals. Yes, the competition is stiff now as we have to compete with the foreigners who are coming here to work. Judging from a company's perspective, this is good as they will be able to get people with the relevant skills that they need given such a diversified market. But if the policies are changed and become unfavorable to these corporations, will they pack up and move elsewhere? What is going to happen to people like me and you? Are we looking at the nitty gritty issues that we lost sight of the big picture?  

Singapore, no matter how successful it is now, continues to be an island that is vulnerable to regional and international issues. I hope we will be able to elect candidates with foresight and capability to form a good team to lead Singapore regardless of what parties they belong to. 

It's a tough decision to make. Vote wisely! I think tomorrow night everyone including me will be checking eagerly for the result. Good night~

 

work cow work horse

the title perfectly explains my work! now every morning i struggles to wake up and reach work before 630am and my work ends around 6pm... nearly or sometimes exceeds 12 hours everyday from monday to friday... what do i think about the job? mixed feelings... the job scope is okay and the workload is too much... i have two colleagues whom i feel comfortable talking to... most of the others are neutral to me... few of them whom i dont really like... no job is perfect! i guess i just have to learn to love my job... at least it's rewarding in the practical sense... but i kept hearing from people there that there is NO bonus?! really cant believe this... even his cousin who moved from here to next door received a 3 mth bonus... i seriously believe we deserve a bonus for working so hard... :( everyday is work work work and weekend is sleep sleep sleep... NO LIFE!?

my blog looks so abandoned now... been trying so hard to update my japan trip which is not so updated at all... :s anyway i have developed the pics... so tt when my frens come over, they can finally see my masterpieces lar... and din have the time to post my renovation pics too... all of a sudden, he and his brothers already moved in... now getting more comfortable in the house i hope... i am having holiday till next tues... which is a total of four days... but but but going malaysia tomorrow with my mum and sis... quite happy to go back... wanna take picture of the old house before it gets tear down... and give a treat to my mum's siblings... they are very nice people and treat us very well... now i am getting better financially, i feel like to treat them! and my sis wanna go facial... my mum and i also going for bloodtest... i am really afraid my health is getting bad... always feeling tired and having headaches EVERYDAY... so torturing...

its time for bed... after holiday, everything goes back to reality! *FIGHT!!!!*

ma-ke-ta-ku-nai~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ( ^^)v

its been a long time...

since last time i blogged, many things have been happening...

1. i found a job near my home - already worked four months there... time really flies... really hate the first two months there... it has been very exhausting for the mind... not getting used to the environment... trying to understanding the culture over there... now, its more exhausting for the body... working for very long hours... waking up very early in the morning is the worst~

2. we already received the keys to our new house... after running around various places for so many weekends, we finally decided the contractor... now the house is being renovated at high speed... haha probably be done in 3 weeks time...

3. i continued my japanese class this year... but have been going to class late every week and already skipped twice since the start of year... :s hope to be more hardworking in studying...

4. planning a trip to bangkok again in june with sy, yj and yj's fren... it is indeed something to look forward to... for a crazy shopping trip~ hahahahaha the previous time i went was end of the year and bangkok was faced with bombing incidents... hope this time will be shun shun li li...

hope to update the pics next time... been very lazy to update even the japan trip pics still not done yet?!?

結婚の意味

結婚の意味を教えてください。

新しい家を買うために、結婚するのは意味がないよね。

彼は本当にプロポーズしたくなかったかも。私が言った。

”どうしてプロポーズもしないのに、先に家を買うの？”

だから、プロポーズしてくれたんだ。

テレビでプロポーズの番組が出ていて、あの女たちは幸せですね。男はいろいろな準備をして、ロマンティックのプロポーズをあげた。

私、たぶん一番失敗な女です。

最近けんかしちゃった。毎日、同僚の前でも、家族の前でも笑っていたけど、寝るときは千尋鬼塚の歌を聞いて寝るまで泣いていた。彼に嫌われてしまったので、彼に電話しても切られた。

”あなたと話したくない。”　携帯のメッセージ。

こんな二人はもうすぐ結婚する？信じられない。

結婚しても、長く続けますか？

私、何してる？

幸せになりたい。

失敗

”ねぇ、あなたが来る前に、このチームに新しい人が入ることは全然知らなかったんだ。席もないし、パソコンもないし、うちのチームのスペースも狭いので、どうすればいい？このチームに入りたいの？”

適当な答えは何だろう？”私はどうしてこの会社に入ったの？”

私のセイじゃない。

life

it has been very tough for me. i have to admit i am not a very sensitive person. Now that i have landed myself in this kind of situation, i dun foresee how i can carry on my life or even pass every single day without having to worry about my own safety. i just want to live a normal life, better still hide in a corner and do my work without having to interact with others. are they genuinely nice? are they pretending? are they gossiping or complaining me as a newbie who knows nothing and gets into their way? i dunno... sometimes i wonder if i would get to hear their true feelings like in dramas where people would accidentally overheard other people saying bad things about themselves especially in toilets. nah, of cuz that did not happen to me. these people are probably too clever to do this kind of stupid actions. am i thinking too much? i am not very happy. in fact,this is making me feeling very terrible everyday. i drag myself to wake up every morning. if not for the pressing issues i have right now, i would not force me, myself and i to carry on doing this. i am feeling slightly depressed initially. now i think i am getting more and more depressed to the extent i started to think of the simplest solution. it's quicksand. it's dragging my limbs and i have no wish to struggle. times like this, i start to hate the world. start to hate every single thing about life. like a rebellious teenager. nothing, not even my favourite songs are going to make me feel better. listening to chihiro onitsuka's songs make me feel worse cuz i can feel the helplessness in the depressing songs. i am worried. i think one day i will be swallowed by my own worries. is it the end of the world when people are swallowed by their own worries? i guess no one can really understand what i am saying.

6 Nov 07 - Kagoshima

Train ticket to Kagoshima

The next morning, I woke up super early to check out and went to Hakata Station to get my train ticket... I was super excited because I knew that suyu was also on her way to meet me at Kagoshima. So long never see her already... Yes, I tried very hard not to get lost! A blur me was walking around the train station because there are two areas which sell Shinkansen tickets but I don't seem to find my destination "Kagoshima".... How? Open your mouth and ask~! hahaha So I was supposed to buy my ticket at first level not second level... Successfully found the place and went to buy my ticket... I tried asking in English because I felt very unsure how to go about asking in Japanese but the man don't seem to understand my question... :s Forced to use my broken Japanese again... Reserved seats were taken already so I only had the choice to buy non-reserved seat... (tip: if you are going to buy long distance train ticket, buy in advance i.e. 1 day before the trip... you would not like the idea of standing for so long!) But I was at least 30 minutes early... I went in and to my horror, one long flight of staircase! Dragged my super duper heavy luggage bit by bit... So paiseh... There was a group of teenagers who seemed to be on an outing... One by one, they walked past me and I was still dragging the luggage... The best thing I love about the train stations is vending machines and food stores... =) Grabbed something to eat and bought my favourite juice...

Despite being in the non-reserved seats cabin, I managed to find a seat... the train had a lugguage compartment right in front so I deposited my luggage there and sat down comfortably... announcements were made in Japanese, English, Chinese, Korean... Don't have to worry about not understanding the announcements... heehee Enjoying the scenery outside when my ears suddenly picked up the announcement - "Train carriages from 1 to 5 are going to Kumamoto while carriages from 6 to ...." Huh?!?!?! You mean the train is going to split?? A very nervous me was looking around frantically for the carriage number... I dun want to be going somewhere I dunno... :s Luckily i was in the correct carriage...

Note: www.hyperdia.com is one of the most useful websites for travellers to plan their japan trip... as everyone knows, trains in japan run on fixed schedules... so better check everything before you go! According to my schedule, I have to change train at Shinyatsushiro to take a shinkansen to Kagoshima... When the train reached the station, all the people were rushing out to the train at the next platform... I also forgot to check and blindly dragged my luggage to alight... The train started soon after I found a seat... *OMG!* Where is the train going to? I asked the person sitting next to me and heng, the train was going to Kagoshima... -_-"

When i arrived at the station, *lost* again... but never mind! The golden rule is - Follow the crowd! hahaha I was so happy when I saw Suyu outside waiting for me... Yeah! We never meet up for so long already... At least one year plus... Went to deposit my luggage in the lockers conveniently outside the station (Why we can't have this in Singapore?) and off we go to the most famous sightseeing place in Kagoshima --> Sakurajima!

Busy life....

How do i put watermark on photos? Haiz, i am so busy and he is too busy to teach me as well so i haven got the time to go and watermark my photos before putting them in my blog... cant wait to share my japan trip photos but i guess it has to be temporarily postponed till i learn to watermark and have the time to sit in front of my computer to do it... :s

Some updates about my life... my mum was hospitalised a fortnight ago... she was having a fever and her body was swollen all over... just gotten back from a post check up only to find that she is suffering from SLE (lupus)/Sjogren syndrome... Read the articles online and apparently it is quite serious... she was quite worried about it as one of our distant relatives actually passed away last year due to lupus... she kept talking abt her godsister who suddenly discovered her lung cancer last year... my god aunt was in last stage of cancer when she was diagnosed with cancer and left us soon after that... but i believed that my mum will get well... my sis said we discovered it quite early... with medications, the symptoms can be kept under control... everything will be okay... this dec, she will be going for a holiday in China... doc says she can be well again within 6 t0 12 mths...

About myself... i have officially ended my jobless life... started working somewhere near my place... yes, my workplace is 3 bus stops away from my house... too far to walk there but very fast by bus... hahaha all my colleagues are living far from tampines... :p still sitting around and staring into space sometimes... even about to fall asleep at times... which i feel extremely guilty... but what to do? got nothing to do mar... heehee :p cuz i am still waiting and waiting for instructions to be given from above... tentatively i will try to find things to do... :s anything so that i can help my colleagues and also to kill TIME... i even get to off work very early these few days... enjoy the luxury now because i tink my life is going to be terrible next time... judging from the hours my colleagues are working... hope to stay with this grp of ppl i am attached to now... because they are very very nice ppl... =) one even commented that i am a quiet girl... yes, i am very quiet because i am not used to the environment yet... ahahaha

that's all for today... will be going for tuition soon... shld i continue teaching? i am worried that next time i might have to commit till late hours which means tuition is almost impossible... :s will ask for yj's opinions... i like my tuition kid and enjoy teaching him... but i wonder how i can juggle between work, tuition, jap class, renovation, wedding plans next yr? can i freeze the free time i have now and credit it to next yr? how i wish~

5 Nov 07 - Fukuoka (Part IV)

The shopping areas in Fukuoka. On travel books, they often said Fukuoka is great for shopping. I believe that it is true because all the shopping areas are so big~!

Tenjin Underground Shopping Arcade

This is one part of Tenjin underground shopping arcade. I entered into a small shopping centre and its basement is connected to Tenjin underground shopping arcade. Along the walkway, there are many little shops. Feels like citylink but it is definitely more confusing. At least citylink is just a long stretch easier to shop. For Tenjin underground shopping arcade, there are several links to shopping centres that are above it. So it's quite difficult to walk around if you are not sure of the places. :s I merely did window shopping because my luggage was already too heavy for me to carry to Miyazaki and I was really unsure whether I will have enough cash to last me the coming 2 weeks plus.

Daimaru

Mitsukoshi

The shopping malls such as Daimaru and Mitsukoshi in Tenjin are really big. Comparing to Singapore, the shopping malls had a different feel. Maybe it's because of the decor inside. Feels very high class to me and their things are really expensive! :| I wandered around, wanted to wait for the yadai to start opening. Yadai are food stalls which only opened at night (like food stalls in Pasar Malam) and some of these stalls are recommended by travel guides too! But I waited till I was too hungry. In the end, I went back to Hakata Station and ate curry udon there. *Oishii*

I went back to the hotel quite early. It had been a tiring day as I did not have enough sleep and was tortured by the cramps. I enjoyed walking alone and going to the different places with the help of friendly people in Fukuoka. Next time I want to come back again to visit those places which I missed out. Marinoa city, Hawkstown, Kawabata etc.

5 oct 07 - Fukuoka (part III)

Outside Tochoji

Tochoji

This is one of the famous temple, Tochoji. This temple holds the wooden statue of Kannon, God of Mercy with 1000 hands as well as the largest wooden statue of Buddha. Unfortunately, I did not get to see the Buddha. I like the picture that I took outside Tochoji though. The one with colourful lanterns!

Kushida Shrine

Kushida Shrine was built during the Heian Period. This was the first shrine I visited. It was a sunny weekday with little visitors. I like the feel of walking into the shrine. So peaceful. I was so excited to do the traditional visiting procedures! First, wash your hands at the side where water is provided. But I have not figured out which hand to use first. Then when I wanted to make a little prayer, I observed how people do it. However, I realised that not everyone does it the same way? They seemed to do it differently. So that's how I decided to do it. Don't know whether this is correct though.

1. Throw a coin into the box
2. Pull the rope and shake the bell (if any)
3. Clap your hands twice
4. Close your eyes and say your wish
5. Bow sincerely

After visiting three places, I went back to check in and rest. My da yi ma had been giving me such a hard time that I lost my mood to continue my tour. :s Passed by Family Mart (I absolutely love Japan's convenience stores!) and gotten myself some sushi and a drink. I even took an afternoon nap. Having regained more energy to walk, I decided to go Fukuoka Tower. Well, it's strongly recommended by Peiwen! I took a bus from Hakata Kotsu Centre and the ride took about 20 minutes.

Fukuoka Tower

Fukuoka tower is BEAUTIFUL. It's one of my favourite building in Japan. =) When I alight from the bus stop, I got lost again. I was inside one of the TV station building so I approached the receptionist and found out that Fukuoka Tower is right next to it. It was a windy day. Much more windy than Singapore. So windy that I felt like I can't walk properly. I was quite worried because I saw the trees shaking violently. At last, I entered the tower. By the way, it's good to alert and pick up tourist brochures. I did that in Fukuoka Airport and got myself a discount coupon for this Fukuoka Tower entrance fee. Small discounts make big difference~! I was served very politely by this lift lady. Inside the lift was a Japanese man with his wife and daughter. We went up the tower together. The lift lady was giving an introduction of Fukuoka Tower. Yes, it is in Japanese. :s

Views from Fukuoka Tower

At the top of the Fukuoka Tower, you can walk one round to get a 360 degree full view of Fukuoka and its bay. I love the sea view! From the pictures, you can see the man-made breakwater constructed to prevent the waves from eroding the beaches. As you can see, Fukuoka has many buildings constructed tall and clustered together. City-like compared to the places I went in Miyazaki.

5 oct 07 - Fukuoka (part II)

Hakata Green Hotel

This was the hotel that i stayed for one night in Fukuoka. It was not expensive (~SGD70) and I like the room even though it was small. Very well equipped with LCD tv, fridge, a small hotplate to boil water! I know a lot of people have the impression that accomodation in Japan is expensive. But if you don't mind staying at small hotels, or even pensions and hostels, you can get cheap deals! =)

Hakata Kotsu Centre

Hakata Kotsu Centre is like the bus interchange in Singapore. I am very amazed that the buses actually drive into the building. On the first level are buses that travel around Fukuoka. Second level and third level are alighting and boarding points for highway buses respectively. Highway buses are alternatives to domestic airlines and trains if you want to travel around different places. For me, I took a highway bus (~4 hours) from Miyazaki to Fukuoka and on the same day, board another highway bus (~10 hours) from Fukuoka to Kyoto. From here, I can take 100 yen buses and other normal buses to go around Fukuoka!

Furusato-kan

I could not find this furusato-kan when i alighted from the bus stop! Attempted to walk around following the map. But it was terrible. Where is it?! When i was standing there at the traffic light helplessly, a man with blond-dyed hair and a half lighted cigarette came over to ask if I was lost. He offered to look at the map but wasn't sure of the directions too. He kept saying "chotto matte" to me and at the same time trying to figure out where we are on the map. After some time, he finally knew where we were and offered to walk me to furusato-kan. *happy*

This furusato-kan is a small musuem that introduces Fukuoka and Hakata history. You can learn about their culture, language etc. They also display items that were used during olden days. (There's some English introductions as well!) It was interesting to walk around this little museum. =) Next to the museum, is a small shop selling souvenirs and toys from olden days. Even if you don't want to buy, it's great to take a look.

Weaving Machine

Weaving was something really interesting that I get to try in Fukuoka! In between the furusato-kan and souvenir shop, there was this little house that showed the history of cloth-weaving in Fukuoka. I was walking inside the house taking photos of weaving machine and the finished product, when an ojisan approached me wanting to explain the history of weaving. But but but, he was speaking in Japanese! I tried my best to understand what he's speaking and probably understood only 40%. ”わかりましたか？簡単で説明しますね。” (Did you understand? I will do a simple explanation.) Looking at the question marks on my head, he decided to let me try out weaving instead. I sat in the machine above, with ojisan standing next to me to guide me. He would smack my hands if i never place my hands properly. :s I managed to do quite a few lines of strings. Weaving is not easy at all. It requires good hand and leg coordination because after you step on the peddle, your hands need to be ready to switch the ball of string. It's fun!

5 oct 07 - Fukuoka

The whole night on the plane, I could not get to sleep because of a snoring man sleeping behind me. All the people were sleeping soundly. I look through the window and saw the beautiful night sky. Probably that's the closest distance we can get to stars. The whole sky was lit with glittering stars and it was amazing. I have never seen such sky in Singapore. =) After a while, I slowly fell into deep sleep due to tiredness. When I woke up, it's breakfast time. Japanese style breakfast with rice and miso soup. I asked for the Western style instead cuz I like to eat bread. Haha The air stewardess seemed to assume that I am Japanese so she kept asking me questions in Japanese and i replied in Japanese. In the end, I was not given the immigration card and the declaration card was in Japanese. I had to tell her that I am not Japanese and asked her for the immigration card. =p I felt a sense of relief when we reached Fukuoka International Airport. Finally, I stepped on the land of the rising sun, Japan.

I had a long chat with the immigration officer because there wasn't many people queuing up. At first, he only asked where I am from and what I am here for. Then, he was having difficulty asking in English and started to ask whether I understand Japanese. Yes, the moment I nodded my head, he was so glad and asked even more questions! -_-" Had to write down Suyu's contacts and address because he discovered that I have a friend in Japan. He asked about Suyu's occupation and my whole travel plan. Where did I learn Japanese and how long. Even asked if my boyfriend is Japanese? So after finding out that Suyu is a Singaporean working in Miyazaki and I am a Singaporean coming for a long holiday and my boyfriend is Indonesian, he gave a confused look. ''複雑ですね。。。" (It's complicated...), I said then he laughed. That's the first Japanese I spoke to in Japan.

Then I got stuck at the luggage check area. This officer was nice but niao! He wanted me to open my luggage and check everything... When he saw the parcel that suyu's mum wanted me to bring over, he asked me if i do drugs? -_-" Anyway, after explaining to him the contents, he insisted to open it. The parcel was sealed nicely with scotch tape lor... He doesn't know what is chicken essence? So I got to explain to him. Then, when he saw "Yomeishu", he gave me a diaoz look... "Why you bring this from Singapore to Miyazaki? You can buy this in Japan!" I told him that my friend could not get this in Miyazaki... That's why! After some 15 minutes, he decided to let me go and nicely wrapped back the parcel for me. *lucky*

(Look out for next entry with pictures!)

4 oct 07 - Changi Airport

I only had a few days to pack my luggage. Before I knew it, it was already the day for departure. My mum specially took leave to send me off at the airport. Since my brother had nothing to do, he came along as well. After we ate, dear rushed down from work too. I was feeling very nervous. For the first time in my life, I am going to a place so far all by myself. At the airport, I discovered that my "auntie" came to visit me. *sianz* the end of my hope for the onsen trip!

The moment I stepped into the custom area, I had mixed feelings. On one hand, I am very excited about going to Japan. On the other hand, I seriously doubt myself whether I am able to travel alone. Turning around, I saw my mum waving at me with dear and my brother. "Am I really going alone?" I cross my fingers and hope that I will not get lost at Bangkok Airport.

After a few hours of smooth flight, I reached Bangkok Airport. The plane stopped in the middle of nowhere. I had to walk down the plane and take a shuttle bus. It was torturing for the next few hours of waiting to transit. Walking around the shops with limited bahts I had from my previous trip to Bangkok, I merely did window shopping. In the end, I paid for surfing internet at a internet cafe. It was expensive ~200 bahts for 20 minutes. The computer needed update and it wasted 5 minutes of my time. When i was chatting on msn, I accidentally hit a key to change to Thai words and suddenly I can only type Thai words. Well, at least I got to chat a little bit with my friends and dear.

~Dress well~

When i started work on my first job, it does not require me to dress formally... i am not the kind of person who knows how to go about choosing and matching clothes... so, my dear colleagues always see me in t-shirt and jeans... (not those nice and cool ones!) haha in other words, *lok kok*

The first time when i realised this, was my mentor (name will not be disclosed) who commented on my dressing for she is somebody who always like to dress up nicely... haha after that, here and there i received kind advices and comments... mostly about my sandals... cuz i wear sandals WHEREVER i go... yeah, no matter what i am wearing! =p

recently, ST who was very kind, went shopping with me... in an attempt to get nice clothes that will suit me... last time we went queensway shopping centre too... that was very long ago... apparently one trip is not enough to change a person's dressing for the better... so this time was at orchard... :) ST is really pro in shopping and she knows how to dress up very well... (of cuz we cant say bad things about people who help us right?) haha though sometimes i dont understand her definition of nice, but i really trust in her to help me... so i have learnt some lessons from our precious learning shopping trip...

1. don't wear purple even though everyone knows i love purple colour... she says sometimes it makes me look old... must depend on the shade... i am still trying to figure out wat shades suit me...

2. no lines at you-know-where... it just dun suit my figure...

3. NO NO NO! shocking pink is erm...

4. Try grey and blue... yes! its really nice...

5. sleeveless and long sleeves are great!

6. long tops are recommended... cuz my body is not-long...

7. matching shoes with the clothes is impt!

some of the points i remembered from the trip... hahaha thank you teacher ST... =p knowing what is suitable is not enough... i think must be brave enough to try... so i practically tried everything ST chose, not forgetting the unforgettable elf costume...

What did i buy?

- A grey & white striped dress which is really nice and looks so si wen...
- A black dress and white skirt which i matched them together to wear... its one of my favourite... reason: its very comfortable!
- A pair of black heels which i tink will come in useful for interviews, work, etc
- A pair of black capris pants which matches the above heels very well...

That's all for this shopping trip... :)

Going Japan!!!

after so many years of studying Japanese, i finally have the chance to go Japan... this time it will be double combo - kyushu + kansai... hopefully when i come back, i can take some time to blog about my trip... *yeah* =) it has been my wish to travel there... due to financial constraint, i have been waiting and waiting... so i am super excited about it... though its super tiring to be planning for the places to go and accommodation etc, i actually prefer free n easy than package tour... i wanna relax after converting to jobless status... heehee~

Its really goodbye this time

these few weeks have been rather busy at my workplace... went concourse with my colleagues to buy presents for all the children... den have been writing for term progress for the children cuz its the end of the term le... plus marking the never ending pile of homework... somehow time never seems to be enough... i have not been making the class materials as well... lucky i am going back during the term break to finish my work... hahaha by this week, i have to finish wrapping all the presents as well... hopefully all the children can come this week to get their presents else... sianz... (reminded myself of one pinwheel which is still in the cupboard cuz my student din come) last week got quite a lot of absentees... i wonder why?

time really flies... this week is actually my last teaching week at the school... i think i really gonna miss my colleagues and children a lot... it has been a very wonderful and happy working experience with the children and i enjoyed working with my fun colleagues (they really made a huge difference!)... minus the 'cool' bosses, everything was great... thats why iv kept saying that i will surely cry on the last lesson with my children... *no way* no matter how she bu de i am, i shall be a very brave girl and not cry for the whole week... *tian xia wu bu san zi yan xi*

after tendering for the third time, i am finally leaving... and its without any regrets... well, things have come to such a stage that i actually felt glad that i have put things to an end...

About Parents

I was talking to ST that day after our saturday classes... dunno why we started talking about our parents... especially our dear mums... so we spotted many similarities between them, other than like to watch the afternoon taiwanese drama 'yi nan wang'... heehee =p somehow this conversation came up in my mind while i was standing in front of the sink and happily washing all the dishes + two pots with curry stains + rice cooker... suddenly just feel that sometimes i dun really understand how my mum thinks... i am sure many people feel the same way towards their parents too, if the parents are very traditional... but it is important that we remind ourselves no matter what our parents do, they have our interests in mind... because of the generation gaps and different thinkings, we might quarrel because of misunderstanding... a scene replayed in my mind... in the movie 'I not stupid', where the dad died while trying to protect his son... he was a violent dad and always beating his son... but he did not have much education and did not know how to go about teaching... the only way that he knows to teach his son is to beat him... so sad right? on the other hand, now that many families are getting affluent, the parents have a tendency to spoil their children such that the children grew up not knowing wrong and correct, not able to face failure etc... all parents love their children but it is also important to learn how to love children correctly... Love education is the key to raise children!

From colorquiz.com

Your Existing Situation

Volatile and outgoing. Needs to feel that events are developing along desired lines, otherwise irritation can lead to changeability or superficial activities.

Your Stress Sources

Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.

The situation is preventing her from establishing herself, but she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.

Your Desired Objective

Needs to feel identified with someone or something and wishes to win support by her charm and amiability. Sentimental and yearns for a romantic tenderness.

Your Actual Problem

Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics she admires and to display originality in her own personality.

p/s: just happened to check psychology test online and tried this... some parts are really very accurate! =p

FriendS

Friends are a form of emotional shelter... someone to share laughter and joy... someone to share tears and sorrows... someone to lean on for support and someone to give support to... friends need encouragement from each other and friends have to learn to accept each other for who they are... not just tolerating each other, but to understand how each other feels...

I just hope that things will get better as time goes by... =)

just to share~

Proverbs 10:19

When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise.

Just feel like sharing this phrase which is one phrase that i remind myself quite often... other than "be slow to angry" in James 1... these are two very important phrases which i have learnt to conduct myself in my daily life... yes, from time to time, we tend to forget about our weaknesses and bad points... but i feel that it is good to keep on reminding myself of these two phrases... so that i remember that i must not be too fast to react and become angry and speak without thinking... oh, i must share this with my tuition kid... i kept telling him that i remembered this phrase in the bible but i cant remember where it is?! but actually i had a bookmark on this page... i hope he learns from this...

James 1:22

Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.